Well its summer time again, and thank goodness. School was wearing on me and i feared that if i had to go much longer i would, A.) explode, B.) freak out and be a not very nice person to everyone around me, or C.) not care anymore and my grades would be horrible and i would be kicked out of school. Its true one of those things would have really happened. So its a very good thing that school ended. However the excitement i feel with school letting out, the same excitement is not there for coming home to Missouri and leaving my friends, singles ward, independence, and life in Provo.

I am grateful to have the time to spend with my family but it is interesting having all the independence i want and then coming home and my life is turned upside down. i have someone to report to and there are children running everywhere asking you questions are telling you things or just screaming at each other right next to you. i don't understand why they insist on coming into whatever room i am and yelling at each other, wouldn't it be the same argument in any other room?

I had an amazing semester. It was different than any i have had in the past. i learned a lot o f new things and learning more about myself and about people in general. i had some of the happiest days and some of the worst days. I experienced trials that i never had before. I even had my heart broken. It was all worth it though. I learned so much and i truly believe i am a better person today because of this past semester at BYU.

Not that i am home in Missouri (Misery), i have a lot i need to do to make this summer worth it. I am working everyday at National Pearl managing shipments. Its a ton of work and i have a lot of responsibilities. I love it though. i get back some of the independence i lost when i moved back into my parents home. I get to work by myself and feel as though im accomplishing something. I have to work hard and effectively. If i mess up my family and our company loses money they we don't have. It gets boring when i sit in a shop all by myslef with a grumpy guy in the next room but i am going to think of rather as a gift. a gift of time. To think and to ponder. To make myself a better person. i can listen to talks on the computer and i can do thinks that are worthy of my time and talents.

I hope that my time this summer is worth it. I know the Lord has sent me home for something. to learn something or teach someone. I hope and pray that i can make a difference in my life and have experiences with my family and the people here in Missouri that will change my life in the years to come. I will probably do either of the three things i mentioned before while here in Missouri, and im already looking forward tot eh fall semester at BYU, but for now im just going to do my best.

oh blogging. Such a strange thing. Writing about our lifes for other people to read or more accurately, stalk. But my logic is, i have ideas and opinions, why not share them with the world? There is so many interesting things going on in my life. Facebook is overrated and its time for something new. So most recently I turned in my application for the Elentary Education program here at school. What a releif. it feels good to think that i have made it this far. Only 2 more years to go! I love taking Education classes. Finally something im interested in. The idea of teaching students in a real classroom excites me. It makes me remeber why I'm painfully surving the college homework and classes. I know i am supposed to teach and i love it.